Aquarius

Regina Spektor

Dear someone listening
in the shadows,
I only talk to you sometimes.
And though I ask for help in riddles,
it is,
clearer in my mind,
clearer in my mind.

Born of a sign that carries vessels,
but in a month as cold as ice.
I know I question things too quickly,
but I have never questioned if I've loved,
loved.

Dear someone
watching from the shadows,
I'm clenching water in my fists.
The droughts they slip right through my fingers,
but there's
water on my lips,
water on my lips.

Born of a sign that carries
vessels,
but in a month that brings just ice.
I know I question things too quickly,
but I've never
wondered if

I've loved
loved.

Dear someone watching from the shadows,
you've seen me lose all the water from my hands.
I'm not a skillfull water carrier,
but the raindrops
keep falling on my head,
falling on my head.

Born of a sign that carries water,
but in a month that brings just ice.
I'm not a skillfull water carrier
but I've,
learned to carry love,
learned to carry love.

I'm not a skillfull
water carrier,
but I've learned to carry
love
love
love
love

HELL NO

Rgina Spektor & Sondre Lerche

I know I was out of line
you were way out of your mind
wrapped up in my reveries
causing all this misery

hear me out
if ever there's a chance in heaven (or in hell)
to slowly forget the past and the bandage

be careful you fool, there are certain rules
even for a fellow like you
but don't be alarmed, no one gets harmed
I will never go, babe, hell no

maybe I was in the dark
but why'd you have to steal my heart?
well, I didn't plan to go berserk
baby, you were such a jerk

well just hear me out
I can't believe the things I said (i know!)
I obviously was removed from my senses

be careful you fool, there are certain rules
even for a fellow like you
but don't be alarmed, no one gets harmed
I will never go, babe, hell no

now hear me out
if ever you decieve me (if ever, ever?)
we're through
you worry too much, I won't make you sorry

be careful you fool, there are certain rules
even for a fellow like you
but don't be alarmed, no one gets harmed
I will never go, babe, hell no

be careful you fool (don't be alarmed)
there are certain rules (cause I know that)
I will never go, babe, hell no

HAPPY NEW YEAR - 2011

Oh well! Just another 9 minutess to go...wish you guys happy 2011 and a year closer to 2012 *shudders >.<

Love & Peace

Manga Fox: Cinema Empire Manga Series

Manga Fox: Cinema Empire Manga Series

I'm a fan of Japanese Manga especially the Shoujo-Romance genre and trust me this is a must read for fans alike. Love can never be this complicated and yet so cruelly seductive, you just can't put it down! The plot starts with a Love Triangle that evolves into siblings rivalry for success in show business as well as the love and affection from Kaori, a sought after lady with supernatural power. The plots thicken when a will left by their late father that whomever Kaori chose to marry will not inherit the Hakuto's Cinema Empire. The shock was a heavy burden for the lovers who have been keeping their relationship under-wrap, without themselves knowing that Youhei, the youngest brother had known it all along. Seiya, a cutthroat businessman in my opinion was too ambitious and an idealist he chose to betray Kaori's love. Pushed in a corner Youhei stepped up and took Kaori as his wife and confess his secret obsession of undying love for her. The forlorn Kaori and Youhei a struggling independent director sets their journey into show business with much less with nothing but with advantage of Kaori's left eye.

Seiya's character change after realizing that Kaori is no longer at his expense and all this while he had never stop loving her. It was totally by fate that the brothers was meant to compete, the movie written and directed by Youhei was stolen and plagiarized by his own friend. The same movie his brother is producing. It's all due to Kaori's 'gift' and hard work that they were able to finish the movie and put it on screen regardless of the obstacles that they have to face. Meanwhile, Youhei's and Kaori's relationship starts to shake with a third wheel on board the immature and childish actress Sarina. Kaori tried to love her husband but in the same time still holding a torch over Seiya. The night the filming finished Sarina confess his one-sided love, Youhei spent the night coaxing the devastated actress and regretfully lead to drunkenness night well spent in a cheap hotel. Meanwhile, Kaori who was struggling to promote the film with yet another cinema empire equal to Hakuto's level met a minor injury during a forceful confrontation with Seiya. She was admitted to a hospital and indirectly later announced pregnant.

living a life as celebrities and under public scrutiny made Youhei's a target for scandals and threaten his marriage with Kaori. After winning the bet from Seiya, Youhei's movie ranked no. 2 nationwide, he was happy but he can't help feeling that Seiya is after his wife. Once again, Kaori had to face yet another betrayal from her lover-husband who scandal made public of his infidelity with Sarina. The gossip when national and affected the movie ratings, Sarina stupid declaration of love to Youhei pushed Kaori to divorce Youhei in order to save him from Sarina's angry fans. However, the overemotional Youhei wouldn't accept the turning point of event and took matters in his own hand by trying to commit suicide. The public and Sarina's fan-craze injured Kaori mentally and physically she end up in the same hospital as Youhei. Seiya learned that the baby was his and plead Kaori to choose him. He vowed that he had never loved or will love anyone else beside her. Meanwhile, Youhei is on the verge of dying.

In the final chapters, Kaori stayed by her husband's side and nursed him to health. Meanwhile, the movie went international, it won an award and gain numerous accolade by movie critics. Sarina made her debut as a sought after actress of the year and left Youhei, due to show business pressure (BITCH!). Kaori refuse Seiya and Youhei woke up from his coma. The first thing that came out of his mouth is that he has another script on his mind (a true artist!) He let Kaori go and said his work is his life, he will strive in them from that day onward (WTF!!). After three years, Youhei became a well known director and Seiya left Hakuto to search for Kaori who had been missing ever since. In the last pages, Kaori sitting in a living room with her three year old son facing the sun, when Seiya appeared and said "I finally found you" (waaaaaaa huhuhu *LOVE in the end sighhhh)

I feel angry and disappointed with Seiya who followed his father's wishes blindly and hurt Kaori by inviting her to the hotel which he spent with another actress. He coldly suggest Kaori to choose Youhei and he can't possibly let go of the Business. Meanwhile, Youhei's regardless of his undying love confession for Kaori made me question who is he trying to convince? I agree with his friend when he question him that and left him dumbfounded. He made a huge blunder by having sex with his own main actress due to drunken mistake. He even try committing suicide when Kaori who tried to save him through divorce. I lost all respects even though he was a very driven and ambitious director with natural talent. I REALLY HATE Sarina, who didn't realize it was Kaori who spotted her with her left eye on her talents. She stole her man and made it as if it was Kaori's fault why Youhei committed suicide. She was the true villain because 1) she seduced the vulnerable Youhei 2) she made a childish declaration that ignite the publics wrath on Youhei and alienated his move 3) she had the nerve to say it was Kaori's fault when she didn't even know the roots of the problem to start with 4) In the end she left Youhei for her career instead, such a BITCH!

The Girl Who Played With Fire

"The title kinda remind me of Drew Barrymore movie 'Firestarter' but this book is nothing like the movie and its on a whole different track altogether..."

Title: The Girl Who Played With Fire
Author: Stieg Larson (dead and famous)
Genre: Suspense thriller, Investigative, Smut, Drama.

What I like about the second book is that the author justified Lisbeth Salander existence. It's all about her history and her character development from the last. Her sorta subdued and keep-to-herself attitude changed to a more approachable and I slightly sense some warmer feelings towards her character than before. She got herself new boobs (bigger), a new apartment and many more things.

The plot heightens when she was wrongly accused for a triple homicide at two different locations. The Detectives are pretty one sided in their investigation and shift all the blames on Gothic, punk-ish and social retard Lisbeth Salander. It got interesting when the mystery slowly (painfully) unfold and Lisbeth who was supposed to be innocent was actually closely related to the Murder cases which may caused her problem later on. The story ended in a total cliffhanger, it left Lisbeth half dead in a hospital.

"No spoiler, Lisbeth still kicked ass, new taste in sex, ignored Mikael Blomkvist (applaud), faced her nightmare and in coma..."

The Girl with The Dragon Tattoo

"I'm pretty pumped and irritated so here I go...no spoiler alert, you should read it yourself for details *evil laugh..."

Title: The Girl with The Dragon Tattoo
Author: Stieg Larson (dead and famous)
Genre: Mystery, Drama, Psychological, Thriller, Tragedy, Romance.

First read was definitely intense and a challenge. The book starts with a 3 decades worth of mystery and the plot thickens and take a sharp twist towards the end, and the ending left me out dry and thirst for more.

First main character. I hate Michale Blomkvist. Despite of being a straight lace, honest and a credible journalist of incredible passion for justice. Definitely a guy you don't want to fall in love with but you can't deny attracted to his frivolous sex live, charm and suave attitude. Nevertheless, I can't hate him forever.

Meanwhile, I found myself attached to Lisbeth Salander, a really quiet and complicated woman. Despite her personal issues, the author gave her charm by giving her BRAIN and rebellious nature! In a glance she defies every essence for a perfect heroine and she is far from your everyday girl-next-door. Yet you just can't stop loving her.

When both characters meet in the middle of the novel. The plot took a turning point where excitement builds up and everything went fast phase. I really thought it was a family friendly type of novel but as I flip pages gory images flashes in my brain... (*shudders)

"it feels like watching 'Criminal Mind' the series and 'Swordfish' the movie. Nevertheless, the best impact was when Lisbeth Salander is in love with the wrong guy. I was really hoping that it would turns out great for her but of course we are talking about him...the 'Practical Pig'...*sigh"

Please let me eat...

I went to work at 630am and got back at 7.30pm. I was fasting today, I woke up late and manage to eat a few scoop of Oats for 'sahur'. I was really hungry at the office, in fact I was famished. On the way home, I can't take my mind off food that I want to consume. I reached home and found some good food to eat, as I was about to eat my little niece came and asked for some biscuits. I don't know what kind of biscuits she wanted. We have a lot of 'Raya' Cookies so I was terribly confused and hungry. I asked my mom and mom asked me to 'layan' her. She was really emotionally tired to bother. I was hungry. So I asked again what kind of cookies she wanted, she kept saying biscuits. Of course what does a 3 years old know. I asked my mom again and she sarcastically said the cookies in the big tin on the rack! Marrie Cookies! Sigh, how would I know, I've completely forgotten of their existence ever since Ramadhan. I resume back to eating when Dad suddenly said. Because of eating, I wouldn't do anything from a simple task asked. I was hungry. I heard a switch flicked and blew my top off. Literally blown up to an atomic mushroom! I cried and screamed and cried, sobbing and trying to say that all I wanted is to eat! all I want is to eat. I just got home from work, I'm tired and I just want to eat. I was so hungry, I knocked off a chair, went to the toilet and slammed the door. I went to the toilet, took my ablution. I came out, hungry still slammed every door I see and ignored the food on the table. I called my irresponsible elder sister to come home and fend after her children. I know its not my parents fault. They were tired and I WAS HUNGRY! After my 'Maghrib' prayer, without saying a word I ran to my cousin's house and wrote this entry.

The End