Initially..we are losers who are trying not to be a loser.

Initially I want to share everything that is going on in my life with you. I want to tell you every dirty detail. I want you to laugh with me, to cry with me even to be angry at me but most of all to know me. To know me better, a little bit better than from what you already knew. Yes! I can't stop. I ask a lot of questions because I want to know you. I want to be able to connect with you. Thus, trust you. I want to feel how you feel. I want to understand your anger and what bugs you. Most importantly, I want to be there for you.

You know I hate it when we are not talking much. I hate it when we SMS. I hate it when we meet it is only for a short while. I hate it when you just disappear. I hate it when you are so caught up in your work. You Are Tired. You Are Stressed Out. Time out! TLC? Should I take a rein check? Ok, stepping back! Slowly...

It's a fact I always feel sick when no one love me. I feel stupid When I’m not doing anything great. I feel used when I make people use me. Enough! I know I’m multi-talented but know this it's bunch of useless talents. I multitask and know this it’s degrading. I am people friendly and know this it’s annoying. I’m nice, too nice and know this it is disgusting. I inspire, I do? and know this I intend it to happen. Is it happening? No? Sigh...

I always thought that maybe, just maybe it would be a little bit different if I were a pretty young thing. Just maybe, I was right. I will never be your first choice but its better than none. You know I am a great person right? I am a great person. It irks you when I do this, right? This heart 'It' is always an issue and we avoid 'it' like a disease. You know, I want to say ‘it’ to you but I know I cannot because I know the feeling is not mutual and I’ll be more heart broken if I did. I guess I won’t be saying ‘it’.

We have no trouble talking physical. Yes I do want to get physical with you. I want to touch you places that gives you pleasure. I want to lie in bed with you all day long and let you explore to your heart content. I want to kiss you slowly in the rain, I want to stare deep into your eyes and swim! I want to make love to you again and again. Babe! You're the mouth and I'm the word all you have to do is say it! I’ll be on top if you asked me to. I’ll bend any way you want me to. I’ll go down as low as I can if you will do it too. You don’t have to tie me or cuff me because I’m not going anywhere. I understand the gesture but know this I’m on it if we are doing this together and I want it forever.

Initially, I want to wait for you but obviously you don’t want me to. I’m too hung up over you and I hate for letting myself so into you. I can’t fight the law of attraction love, opposite attracts. Should this suffocate you? Know this I'm in Hell too? I sound like a maniac (laugh). I don’t know why I’m so drawn to you. Do you have a clue? Babe! You’re not a loser! So am I! We are not losers, no we are not. To begin with and to end it I don’t want to lose you and you’re losing nothing.