HAPPY NEW YEAR - 2011

Oh well! Just another 9 minutess to go...wish you guys happy 2011 and a year closer to 2012 *shudders >.<

Love & Peace

Manga Fox: Cinema Empire Manga Series

Manga Fox: Cinema Empire Manga Series

I'm a fan of Japanese Manga especially the Shoujo-Romance genre and trust me this is a must read for fans alike. Love can never be this complicated and yet so cruelly seductive, you just can't put it down! The plot starts with a Love Triangle that evolves into siblings rivalry for success in show business as well as the love and affection from Kaori, a sought after lady with supernatural power. The plots thicken when a will left by their late father that whomever Kaori chose to marry will not inherit the Hakuto's Cinema Empire. The shock was a heavy burden for the lovers who have been keeping their relationship under-wrap, without themselves knowing that Youhei, the youngest brother had known it all along. Seiya, a cutthroat businessman in my opinion was too ambitious and an idealist he chose to betray Kaori's love. Pushed in a corner Youhei stepped up and took Kaori as his wife and confess his secret obsession of undying love for her. The forlorn Kaori and Youhei a struggling independent director sets their journey into show business with much less with nothing but with advantage of Kaori's left eye.

Seiya's character change after realizing that Kaori is no longer at his expense and all this while he had never stop loving her. It was totally by fate that the brothers was meant to compete, the movie written and directed by Youhei was stolen and plagiarized by his own friend. The same movie his brother is producing. It's all due to Kaori's 'gift' and hard work that they were able to finish the movie and put it on screen regardless of the obstacles that they have to face. Meanwhile, Youhei's and Kaori's relationship starts to shake with a third wheel on board the immature and childish actress Sarina. Kaori tried to love her husband but in the same time still holding a torch over Seiya. The night the filming finished Sarina confess his one-sided love, Youhei spent the night coaxing the devastated actress and regretfully lead to drunkenness night well spent in a cheap hotel. Meanwhile, Kaori who was struggling to promote the film with yet another cinema empire equal to Hakuto's level met a minor injury during a forceful confrontation with Seiya. She was admitted to a hospital and indirectly later announced pregnant.

living a life as celebrities and under public scrutiny made Youhei's a target for scandals and threaten his marriage with Kaori. After winning the bet from Seiya, Youhei's movie ranked no. 2 nationwide, he was happy but he can't help feeling that Seiya is after his wife. Once again, Kaori had to face yet another betrayal from her lover-husband who scandal made public of his infidelity with Sarina. The gossip when national and affected the movie ratings, Sarina stupid declaration of love to Youhei pushed Kaori to divorce Youhei in order to save him from Sarina's angry fans. However, the overemotional Youhei wouldn't accept the turning point of event and took matters in his own hand by trying to commit suicide. The public and Sarina's fan-craze injured Kaori mentally and physically she end up in the same hospital as Youhei. Seiya learned that the baby was his and plead Kaori to choose him. He vowed that he had never loved or will love anyone else beside her. Meanwhile, Youhei is on the verge of dying.

In the final chapters, Kaori stayed by her husband's side and nursed him to health. Meanwhile, the movie went international, it won an award and gain numerous accolade by movie critics. Sarina made her debut as a sought after actress of the year and left Youhei, due to show business pressure (BITCH!). Kaori refuse Seiya and Youhei woke up from his coma. The first thing that came out of his mouth is that he has another script on his mind (a true artist!) He let Kaori go and said his work is his life, he will strive in them from that day onward (WTF!!). After three years, Youhei became a well known director and Seiya left Hakuto to search for Kaori who had been missing ever since. In the last pages, Kaori sitting in a living room with her three year old son facing the sun, when Seiya appeared and said "I finally found you" (waaaaaaa huhuhu *LOVE in the end sighhhh)

I feel angry and disappointed with Seiya who followed his father's wishes blindly and hurt Kaori by inviting her to the hotel which he spent with another actress. He coldly suggest Kaori to choose Youhei and he can't possibly let go of the Business. Meanwhile, Youhei's regardless of his undying love confession for Kaori made me question who is he trying to convince? I agree with his friend when he question him that and left him dumbfounded. He made a huge blunder by having sex with his own main actress due to drunken mistake. He even try committing suicide when Kaori who tried to save him through divorce. I lost all respects even though he was a very driven and ambitious director with natural talent. I REALLY HATE Sarina, who didn't realize it was Kaori who spotted her with her left eye on her talents. She stole her man and made it as if it was Kaori's fault why Youhei committed suicide. She was the true villain because 1) she seduced the vulnerable Youhei 2) she made a childish declaration that ignite the publics wrath on Youhei and alienated his move 3) she had the nerve to say it was Kaori's fault when she didn't even know the roots of the problem to start with 4) In the end she left Youhei for her career instead, such a BITCH!

The Girl Who Played With Fire

"The title kinda remind me of Drew Barrymore movie 'Firestarter' but this book is nothing like the movie and its on a whole different track altogether..."

Title: The Girl Who Played With Fire
Author: Stieg Larson (dead and famous)
Genre: Suspense thriller, Investigative, Smut, Drama.

What I like about the second book is that the author justified Lisbeth Salander existence. It's all about her history and her character development from the last. Her sorta subdued and keep-to-herself attitude changed to a more approachable and I slightly sense some warmer feelings towards her character than before. She got herself new boobs (bigger), a new apartment and many more things.

The plot heightens when she was wrongly accused for a triple homicide at two different locations. The Detectives are pretty one sided in their investigation and shift all the blames on Gothic, punk-ish and social retard Lisbeth Salander. It got interesting when the mystery slowly (painfully) unfold and Lisbeth who was supposed to be innocent was actually closely related to the Murder cases which may caused her problem later on. The story ended in a total cliffhanger, it left Lisbeth half dead in a hospital.

"No spoiler, Lisbeth still kicked ass, new taste in sex, ignored Mikael Blomkvist (applaud), faced her nightmare and in coma..."

The Girl with The Dragon Tattoo

"I'm pretty pumped and irritated so here I go...no spoiler alert, you should read it yourself for details *evil laugh..."

Title: The Girl with The Dragon Tattoo
Author: Stieg Larson (dead and famous)
Genre: Mystery, Drama, Psychological, Thriller, Tragedy, Romance.

First read was definitely intense and a challenge. The book starts with a 3 decades worth of mystery and the plot thickens and take a sharp twist towards the end, and the ending left me out dry and thirst for more.

First main character. I hate Michale Blomkvist. Despite of being a straight lace, honest and a credible journalist of incredible passion for justice. Definitely a guy you don't want to fall in love with but you can't deny attracted to his frivolous sex live, charm and suave attitude. Nevertheless, I can't hate him forever.

Meanwhile, I found myself attached to Lisbeth Salander, a really quiet and complicated woman. Despite her personal issues, the author gave her charm by giving her BRAIN and rebellious nature! In a glance she defies every essence for a perfect heroine and she is far from your everyday girl-next-door. Yet you just can't stop loving her.

When both characters meet in the middle of the novel. The plot took a turning point where excitement builds up and everything went fast phase. I really thought it was a family friendly type of novel but as I flip pages gory images flashes in my brain... (*shudders)

"it feels like watching 'Criminal Mind' the series and 'Swordfish' the movie. Nevertheless, the best impact was when Lisbeth Salander is in love with the wrong guy. I was really hoping that it would turns out great for her but of course we are talking about him...the 'Practical Pig'...*sigh"

Please let me eat...

I went to work at 630am and got back at 7.30pm. I was fasting today, I woke up late and manage to eat a few scoop of Oats for 'sahur'. I was really hungry at the office, in fact I was famished. On the way home, I can't take my mind off food that I want to consume. I reached home and found some good food to eat, as I was about to eat my little niece came and asked for some biscuits. I don't know what kind of biscuits she wanted. We have a lot of 'Raya' Cookies so I was terribly confused and hungry. I asked my mom and mom asked me to 'layan' her. She was really emotionally tired to bother. I was hungry. So I asked again what kind of cookies she wanted, she kept saying biscuits. Of course what does a 3 years old know. I asked my mom again and she sarcastically said the cookies in the big tin on the rack! Marrie Cookies! Sigh, how would I know, I've completely forgotten of their existence ever since Ramadhan. I resume back to eating when Dad suddenly said. Because of eating, I wouldn't do anything from a simple task asked. I was hungry. I heard a switch flicked and blew my top off. Literally blown up to an atomic mushroom! I cried and screamed and cried, sobbing and trying to say that all I wanted is to eat! all I want is to eat. I just got home from work, I'm tired and I just want to eat. I was so hungry, I knocked off a chair, went to the toilet and slammed the door. I went to the toilet, took my ablution. I came out, hungry still slammed every door I see and ignored the food on the table. I called my irresponsible elder sister to come home and fend after her children. I know its not my parents fault. They were tired and I WAS HUNGRY! After my 'Maghrib' prayer, without saying a word I ran to my cousin's house and wrote this entry.

The End

A 4 Year Old Confession

Name: Muhammad
Age: 4 Year Old

Muhammad and Daddy went to a Sport's House (apparels and equipments). Daddy was looking for some flashy sport shirt of his favorite football team. He browse through all the collection items and lets Muhammad running amok around the store. Daddy was too fascinated of the merchandise goods and Muhammad was having too much fun causing chaos for both shop owner and other patrons alike.

It was a while before Daddy realize that Muhammad was missing. He went out of his way looking for him around the store. Suddenly Muhammad emerge among bundle of clothes and gave his Daddy a big surprise. Daddy gave Muhammad a brief and stern reminder before went off to pay for selected goods and Muhammad tow in after.

As they got home Muhammad went to his favourite aunt (ME) and as usual we talked about a lot of silly things. We talked how he terrorized three little kittens and he wants to be one of the character in "Armor Hero" when he grows up or maybe was it Robin from "Teen Titan". Because he was four, Daddy has to remind him to pee from time to time and he told him loudly that he don't feel like it.

He went closer to me and told me that he peed in a store full of sport's shirts! (hmm...) I thought he was joking, so I asked. How did you pee in there? He answered proudly "like this" while showing me a demonstration how so. I nod my head and pondered, would a four year old know how to lie? So a sequence of questions came up one by one to satisfy my curiosity. So I asked:

Aunt: Muhammad kencing sikit ke banyak?
Muhammad, was there a lot of pee?
Mohd: Sikit..eh tak tak, banyak!(oh dear!)
a bit..no no, there's a lot!
Aunt: Muhammad, ade kena baju tak?
Muhammad, did you get it on the clothes?
Mohd: Tak...kene seluar jer.(Kes tak faham nih)
Nope..just my pant. (he didn't get the question)
Aunt: Muhammad, ade orang nampak tak?
Muhammad, did anyone sees you?
Mohd: Tak, Muhammad tutup pintu.(pintu??)
No, I closed the door. (door??)
Aunt: Hmm...Muhammad, kat situ ade cermin tak?
Hmm...Muhammad, was there any mirrors there?
Mohd: Ade!(a-ahuh!)
There is!

I guess he was in desperate need to pee and Daddy was too preoccupied to notice. He actually went in one of the fitting room to pee. Its seclude, there's privacy and convenient to him. I believe an apology is in order and We are sorry to Al-Ikhsan Taman University, Johor. If you guys happen to spot a pool of pee, it might be, MIGHT be desperate relief from an innocent but cute four year old who dreams to be a Peace Defender in the future. :P

Eid ul Fitri al-Mubarak

Sekiranya diriku terkasar bahasa dan mengguris hatimu, ampunilah.
Halalkanlah makan minum ku,
Maafkanlah salah silapku dari hujung rambut hinga ke hujung kaki,
yang zahir dan yang batin. Insya-Allah.

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY

53 years of freedom and let us pray for more! One Malaysia, stay united!

Finding Mr. Right

What is it..that made life worthwhile??
LOVE



Finding Mr. Right --->>
Well, it is 'worth it' if
he loves me,
respects me and
pamper me!

I'm just a girl and You're just a boy

My Cheapo Bread Pudding Sedap

ingredients:
200 oz of milk
2 eggs
4 Tsp of sugar
1 tsp of vanilla essence
a handful of raisins or bananas
6-7 slices of stale gardenia bread
enough butter to spread on bread

how to mix:
mix milk, egg and sugar and whisk them well
cut the breads in quarters and spread some butter on 'em
align them or scatter them in a casserole dish
with raisins thrown in between
pour the liquid mixture and let it soak
scatter some coarse sugar on top for some magic!
set the oven 180-200 degrees and let it preheat for 10 mins
Put the casserole dish in and let it bake for 20 mins!

how to eat
You can eat with whip cream or vanilla sauce! Yummy!

The Time Traveler's Wife (Spoiler alert)

"I'm feeling a little bit depressed and I need to let it out of my system. So please bear with me."

Title: The Time Traveler's Wife
Author: Audrey Niffenegger
Genre: Romance, Tragedy, Mature, Smut, psychological, supernatural

I read it and towards the end, I can't stop tears from flowing. I put myself in Clare's and Henry's. I love the complicated relationship and twisted irony they have to face. Being thrown through time and age gaps, its almost masochistic. Maybe, I'm a sadist but I don't want to be one. Through Clare, I hate Henry for letting things goes as his please and let things as they are. He can do more to prevent it and to make it better for the both of them. In Henry's, I understand why he did it. It's poetic justice on his part and what better way than to let what he knows going to happen, happens.

It's obviously was a tough love story, for me it was original and I wanted it to be a little bit longer. If I could I wanted Henry to grow out older and dying because of old age rather than that awful accident. Henry was dying and I was Clare for that briefest moment, I feel Henry by my side and I hugged him not letting go. Knowing that when he comes back it will be over. If I was really her I could never live knowing that I let it happen. The course of their destiny is almost evil and a very sweet torture.

I hate Gomez for seducing Clare and I hate her for relenting. He was her best friend's husband after all but as a woman I can only imagine how lonely and cold it can get without Henry, your soulmate. So I forgive her.

It's painful yet so awfully sweet to love someone from the future in your past and meet again in your future but lose him in the present years together. When in actual you'd lost him way in the past. What kind of life to be awfully alone and keeps on waiting and knowing he is somewhere between times, healthy, youthful and alive but far away from where you are. *sob sob

The Princess Day Out.

Today, Saturday 21st August 2010.

It's a lovely morning, the sun is not as harsh and I took Aminah out to make up for the day before. It will be a 'Princess Day Out'! I shall be on her beck and call! To Jaya Jusco, to the little indoor playground. It will be perfect because:
1. No sun means no sweat!
2. No dirt means no dirt!


The Princess was cute and gay in her sky blue dress and baby blue crocs. I humbly took off her crocs so she can precede her way onto the playing mat and haul her self to the slides, tunnels and those spring thingy that you sit on and it rocks to and fro.



As her loyal servant I watched her from afar but visible enough in her plane view, in case she gets conscious. The crowd came in one by one to join in the fun and most of them were boys. The Princess was pretty outnumbered, I was quite worried and the boys weren't that shy.

I believe the little boys are older around 3-4 years old. They, stared at her, run all around her even tease her from time to time. Despite, she smile, wave and put her tongue out to those who crossed the line. She didn't hit but gave them the dagger stare, her demeanor was delightful. After all that the boys didn't quit, their interest only escalate.



The Princess took a time out and it was my cue to serve her the best nectar the land had to offer (Milo in a pack, not chilled). She poke the straw in, perks up the sweet chocolaty taste and gulp down to quench her thirst. Meanwhile, the boys seem to be up to no good? They group up under the slides and it seems like a summit was in procession. Are they planning a coup d'etat??

As I returned the Princess to her playground the boys called her out to their little office. It seems that one of the boys had brought some toys to share and play. My Princess sits among the boys like A regal Queen among her royal consorts! Suddenly, a little toddler came along and hit my Princess for no reason. It seemed that the little toddler wanted to play but to play is strictly by invitation only. The Princess was shocked, I was surprised that she didn't fight but just stared back.



Suddenly, the toy owner shooed the toddler away and console my little Princess. In my eyes the hero, the knight in shinning armor saved the damsel in distress! It was time to go back so I reminded the Princess of the hour of late. She help her knight to pack his toys and wave him goodbye. The first time ever I saw the little knight, blush, smile and wave back at her! It was sweet and awfully too cute!

The End

The Storm Before

Yesterday, Friday 20th August 2010.

Aminah, 2 years old had been crying through out the day with the same reason all over. First, she cried because I had to go to work and obviously, she can't tag along. Secondly, Her mom left her for her morning lecture. Thirdly, her grandpa (my dad) wouldn't take her along to send off her brothers for religious school and last but not least her grandma left her to go to the mosque for tarawikh! To top off her misery, her mom (my sister) who was tired and all wind up unleash her fury unto her. She took her pitiful self to bed and cry to sleep all the while hugging her lil' blankie for comfort.

18th August 2010

Once the clock starts ticking...youth silently slipping
Tiptoeing on Every seconds missing. I hate wrinkles beneath the eyes that multiplied overnight,
I rubbed to erase through the monitor's dark glares.
It went bloodshot. a crimson dye.

A new habit discovered, picking nails.
The urge is when there's nothing to do.
Rubbing between the edges until it tore, peel it off.
let it bleed for more.

Doodle, doodle and more doodles.
after awhile doodling again and doodled.
up, center, down and around.
Doodling daisies and daisies noodling. Nothing but daisies.

Windows are wide, sometime framed to overlook.
Powdered pink sky and dyed cotton candy.
sets The ruby red sun final dance.
Beautiful and Brazen. a Bewitched night looks on, lured and lust for lights last kiss, in that stained affairs not in day or darkness they shared their intimate bliss.

A fish out of water for six month: Status updated

Stop Human Traficking!

2010 Thomas Cup Badminton-Japan defeats Malaysia.wmv

It was embarrassing and I can't comment no further!

Japan underdogs kicked our ass

Thomas Cup 2010, on May 12th Japan Vs Malaysia to decide Group B winners. There I was in front of the television glued to a match I didn't expect to see, Hafidz Hashim crushing defeat against Shoji Sato (10-21, 21-14, 18-21). Both men entered the court with much cool confidence and affable characters. However, as the match took off it turns to our worst nightmare. It was a bad predicament for whole Malaysian who watched and anticipated Hafidz to win with ease. Japan's last single player Shoji Sato who is physically petite compared to Hafidz turns out to be a firecracker which left us baffled. Hafidz who were seemingly cool earlier, maybe taking things too cool actually left us in much disappointment. However, the physical appearance doesn't bugged me that much because Rashid Sidek was also pettite in built but the world rankings of both men. Hafidz who won All England in 2003 and world ranking at #22 against Shoji Sato at #214 was quite an embarrassment. He lacked in motivation and it was pretty obvious or maybe he was cocky or feeling too comfortable to go against Sato. But, it didn't justified his mistake after mistakes on court, which cost him his opponent's points and upper advantages. The while he realized it, Sato already won the first game. Hafidz tried to redeem his honor by winning the second and stretched the game into the rubber set. Nevertheless, it was a stale effort on Hafidz who at first leading the game and fail to outwit his opponent on the latter. Little Sato managed to counter attack after attacks beautifully and where does this stamina is coming from! He was mentally focused and fights on with much attacks and jumping smashes. There were moments where I cringed every time Sato relaying or returning Hafidz's smashes and moments I felt that I should give up watching altogether because It would be jinxing Hafidz. Nevertheless, the fighting spirit within Hafidz was stronger still and yet too late. Sato wins the game and left us traumatic.


Hafidz Hashim Trivia:
Born 13 September 1982
Height 1.88m (6'2")

Honors:

* 2002 Commonwealth Games Champion
* 2003 All England Open Champion
* 2003 Dutch Open Runner Up
* 2005 Thailand Open Champion
* 2005 Swiss Open Champion
* 2005 Dutch Open Champion
* 2005 German Open Runner Up
* 2005 Denmark Open Runner Up
* 2005 Sudirman Cup Champion(second division)
* 2006 Philippine Open Champion
* 2009 India Open Runner Up


Shoji Sato Trivia:
Born 17 September 1982
Height 1.68m (5'6")

Career:

He won four Japanese National Championships in a row between 2003 and 2006.
2004 Summer Olympics round 1/ match #12: loss to China
2008 Beijing Olympics round 3/ match #2: loss to Denmark

Japan Wins Group B:
Group B: Japan bt Malaysia 3-2 (Kenichi Tago lost to Lee Chong Wei 12-21, 13-21; Noriyasu Hirata-Hirokatsu Hashimoto lost to Koo Kien Keat-Tan Boon Heong 13-21, 17-21; Sho Sasaki bt Wong Choong Hann 21-17, 21-18; Kenichi Hayakawa-Kenta Kazuno bt Mohd Fairuzizuan Mohd Tazari-Mohd Zakry Abdul Latif 21-15, 21-12; Shoji Sato bt Mohd Hafiz Hashim 21-10, 14-21, 21-18).

I'm VAIN... its a disease

1) Vin Diesel: I like him, I do. I see his type as a best friend material! Fun to hang out with, to flirt with and be comfortable enough but not enough to be a boyfriend material. He is a person with features you want to fool around but not to get serious!

2) James McAvoy: He is CUTE! He is definitely a boyfriend material! He is the one you parade around among your friends. The one you like to get cozy at night with, have trashy fight and make up in the next few minutes. However, doesn't seem to be the type you want to build a family with.

3) Giovanni Ribisi: I♥ definitely the type of guy you want to have a long term relationship with! Look at his face, its almost angelic and I won't get tired by waking up and seeing him next to me on the other side of the bed! Never! He has that best friend, boyfriend and daddy features.(LOL)Yeah enough said!

Disclaimer: Everything is fiction and base on my own personal idea of my own ideal kind of guy (based on their features). Personality wise, hey I wish I know them better to pass good judgments! Thus, to love is his own and this is mere ramblings and make believe. If I hurt any feelings, well get over it! As if its going to become a headline or someting! :P

My kind of guy: Vin Diesel

How can I say no to this? He is so hot! He makes me feel notty...

A Blind Dating

(scene: Engagement Party)
Woman: (Looking panic) You're not supposed to be here.
Blind Man: (Looking desperate) I had to see you. It's my last chance to see you....(correcting himself) I've already seen you, I've seen your face. I've seen your eyes , I've seen your lips and your hair.
I've seen everything and you are beautiful. You remember when you tried to tell me what your family thought about love? Well, let me tell you what I think love is. Love is how you speak to me. You have a softness in your voice that (trails off in breathless whisper) And love is how you touch me and guide me, showing me the way to go (softly touches her face, appreciating every contour) And when we kiss, when we kiss... it moves me to my soul.
(End with a passionate kiss)

I can be such a Drama Queen

I wish for peace

The Adventure of Pirate Yucky Ducky!

Yeah! Its another challenging grimy epic of Pirate Yucky Ducky on the open tumblin' bublin' bath tub! *pop! ^_^ ♥

Earth Day 2010

I was suppose to finish a story that I had created..Writer's block gets the best of me and ends up doing this! So, happy earth day 2010! ^_^

Lelaki Idaman

Name: Ahmad Mahmud
Career: 1960-1980s Actor
Love him best in movies: "Hang Tuah", "Dayang Senandong" and "Siti Muslihat".

(Courtesy from Wikipedia)

MY MOST ABSOLUTELY POSITIVELY FAVOURITE

Creme Brule
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Ingredients:
*************
1/2 cup of sugar
4 egg yolks
1 pint (2cups) heavy cream
1 tsp vanilla extract
Powdered sugar for the crust

Tools and utensil:
*******************
Baking and cooking pans
Mixing bowls
Ramekins or tea cups
wire whisks
Propane torches (optional)

Instructions:
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1. First,heat the oven to 275 degrees f.

2. Meanwhile, scald the cream and vanilla extract by heating them in a non-reactive pan over low heat until steaming.

3. Next, when the cream is hot, whisk together the egg yolks and sugar until well blended.

4. Once the cream start to steam, shut off the heat.

5. Then, pour a little bit of cream (around 1/2 cup) into the egg yolks while whisking quickly. This will slowly heat the yolks, reducing the chance of curdling them.

6. After that remove the whisk from the eggs, start whisking the cream and steadily pour the yolks into the cream while whisking quickly.

7. When thoroughly mixed, divide mixture into oven-safe individual ramekins.

8. For best results, optional step is to chill the filed ramekins overnight before cooking.

9. Place ramekins/tea cups in a tall sided baking pan. Pour simmering water into the pan about halfway up the sides of the ramekins.

10. Bake 35-45 minutes.

11. Cover and chill at least two hours.

12. When ready to serve, sprinkle the top of each serving with a thin, even layer of sugar.

13. Used a profane torch or the oven's broiler to caramelized the sugar. Broil for 20-30 seconds within at least an inch of the flame or heating element.

A cup of thoughtfulness

I DON'T GET IT

All my life
I thought I'd always been blunt
Cut to the chase,to the point
Outspoken, full sentence, in laymen terms.

Until today, all it seem pointless
your testimony were shocking and baseless
It raised doubt, questions and senseless
to the point, in shorts, its useless

You said I was distant
I would if you were never there
You said I'd never reciprocate
We were never in that level
You said I was WEIRD!(???)
Mister, We rarely spoken even on telephone!
to the point, you said! You're BUSY

All my life,
I've pursued a dream
don't want to give up, don't runaway
You'd open me up in the light
There in front of me, clear to see and hard to missed

You sum up my life
From all the men that I'd dated
to all rejection after rejections
with attempts and lots of contempt
I was at fault!
For trusting, believing and waiting

My heart is in my head
My head is in the clouds
My eyes is blinded by the sun
So is my body who longed for warmth

My pink colored days
ends when you start to say
lets be friends
and meet 'my girlfriend'!

My Cousin Ina

She loves to 'snap' candid stuff and she just recently graduated from UPSI! Congrats! The project given was to 'do' her! So here you go babe! Although, it is not quite 'like' you, I hope you can see some of the similarity in it.(hint:Camera!) Heeee ^_^

I am scared

It's not one of my nature to be afraid! But I am! It's like going into battle knowing you only have a single bullet left or gambling with a losing hand and the stakes are high. It's not the first and definitely not the last. I'm smart I know I am but time is my enemy. I had been in this situation for many times. I haven't learned from the last mistake and still making new ones! I want to be better than yesterday and it is not easy. Then, to stay in that progressive dynamic is hard! The problem now lies within me and I can't win my own demon and it is slowly getting harder to tame.

Keep telling myself to be prepared, to utilize my time to the fullest. I kept getting sidetracked and now I dread for tomorrow. There's no of use lamenting the lost of yesterdays and all I can do is dwell in the future misery that will haunt me down like a hound dog! Sigh... phrase like good luck means nothing to me, because this is a battle that I can barely win and definitely a shame to be proud of if I got through...it was on a whim of luck, Definitely luck that I will ever need and perchance if I get one.

Shoes...Really?

RANDOM: My dad pull a very wicked prank on me this morning!!!

While I was dreaming of a beutiful prince enticing my every desire in a shallow-clear-water lake witnessed by the moon! *sigh... ~_~ a sudden ongoing banging on the door woke me up! *URGH dad..do you mind, he was yelling that something was stolen and it was...My shoes were gone!! Lately, theft case had been increasing in the area. *REALIZING that all my precious SHOES are GONE, I jumped off the bed and ran out of the house! Without thinking but SHOES, dishevelled and unladylike! *I'm sorry my Prince, when it comes to shoes nothing else seemed to matter. *sigh... Bad habbit of leaving my shoes scattered around. Nevermind that I was too angry to justify, *WTF WHO would stole 'em?! I was beyond angry, I was fuming mad. I can't think straight! My every intention was murderous! I smell blood and all I see was BLOOD!
Dad sneaked up behind me and surprised me with a disgustingly cheerful *Good Morning! and of course mother was laughing her guts out! DAMN IT! *URGH....Why do I have to go through this!!!!! I end up cooking breakfast for them *URGH...My life sucks T_T

P/S: Shoes were ok, all of em! Just to be careful I put them in my room where they are safe for now! They are my national treasure XO